Things Are Going Well.

With every bad day comes a good day.

And let me tell you, there have been some very bad days in the last week.

As the week is coming to a close, things are looking brighter. I've love getting to know all of the girls in my apartment group. Most of us have known each other for years, but it seems like we are really starting to bond. Last night we all got together and hung out for a few hours. Cindy cooked delicious hot dogs, Lupi put cornrows in some of the girl's hair (mine included! pictures will be posted later!), and Z, Emily and Pancha were being crazy as ever. Despite everything that happened yesterday, last night was one of the best nights I've had this summer. You can't go wrong with a great girls night!

Remember how I used to post a favorite song? How about a favorite band?

The Script.

No words can describe how much I love their music. I especially enjoy The Script's station on Pandora. Its my perfect playlist. I'd be listening to them now if my headphones weren't laying on the desk in the apartment. So instead, I get to listen to the wonderful video in Computer Science. I won't lie, our professor sounds like Darth Vader. Every time I start to pay attention, I laugh and think of Star Wars.

I am who I am.

So I may not please the everyone, I may not be perfect. I am who I am. And I'm not changing...

All I can say is What.A.Week.
Who knew things would end up being so complicated. I definitely didn't. In my mind, everything is making sense and I am doing everything right. So why can't everyone else understand? I've gotten a lot of crap from people lately and it is the worst thing to deal with. What I did was my decision. It may have been unreasonable and selfish, but I was losing sight of my dreams. I began to give up on everything I had worked so hard to accomplish. Doesn't sound like me, does it?
I'm all about reaching for the impossible and working toward it until the end of time. I almost gave up on my future.

What was I thinking?

I was thinking I'm in love. That is all that matters... Well guess what. It turns out that there is much more than that. I have everything in front of me. All I have to do is take these chances. I may fail, but I may succeed too. I'll never know unless I discover it. For myself. College has been a major reality check. I've learned more about myself in two weeks than I have in years.

On a brighter note, Computer Science is lovely. Especially when I am beginning to understand what is going on. We wrote a program today about how to determine miles per gallon. I was able to write my own program, but when it came to helping other students, I fell flat on my face. The next thing I have to learn is how to put everything I am thinking into words.

To those who have supported me throughout the last week, thank you. Thank you for supporting me and lifting me up through my hard days. I know that if it weren't for you, I wouldn't be sitting here writing this today. You are the blessings in my life and I am lucky to have you all.

For those of you who are in my position, keep on going. If anyone ever tells you that people are saying things or that you are something you're not, remember the phrase "Give me names." Give me the names of the people who believe that. Prove that its true. Even if they don't believe in you, remember the names of the people who do. You will always have someone there for you. Stay strong. Someone loves you. You know I do.
<3

No words can describe Computer Science.

Soooo college classes this summer..... not exactly my cup of tea.
We have a Computer Science class with a teacher that wants to convert the students to a religion of computer science. Great. Exactly what I want from this course. I feel like I will be building a computer by the end of this (if I payed any attention that is.) He rants and raves about the binary code and talks about hard drives as if they were God's gift to mankind.

So I made a bold move recently.
Facebook? No more. I deactivated my account. I have so many reasons for this decision, but for the most part it is a distraction. Social Networking is just too much of an addiction now days and I don't want to be apart of that crowd.

Hopefully I will start blogging regularly. I have all the time in the world now. So if you're still reading, stick around.
I have a lot to say.

Sometimes I need a moment where I can lie in the grass and listen to music. I need a moment of peace in this crazy thing I call my life. So why can I never find it?

22 days. I have been waiting to graduate for as long as I can remember. This year has been one for the history books. Thinking about it now makes me a little teary. This. Is. It. I never thought that one year could go by so quickly. It feels like it was just yesterday when we hiked up U Hill and painted each other rather than the U. Now we're receiving our caps and gowns... I'm scared, but boy am i ready.

The Script: Without your music, I wouldn't make it through times like this.
Let the good times roll.

feels like a lifetime.

so readers, it has been a long while.
lately i have been spending my days at a cute little clothing store down town. in the mornings, things are very slow. i pray that someone will come in and ask for a shirt that is just out of reach. that gives me an excuse to get my tool that so much resembles little bo peep's hook.
i love this job.
when i'm not selling merchandise, sweeping the floors, or stocking the swim suits, i like to dress up the mannequins in clothes that i could never afford. maybe one day when i'm swimming in money i will buy everything in this store.
recently i spotted a skirt on a rack that has been sitting there for months. i'm not sure if it has been skipped over or if it is due to the fact that the print is not attractive, but it has not been touched. until today. as she was paying for the skirt, she noticed that one of the belt loops was coming undone. i offered to fix it before she could change her mind. all i can say is that this has been the most exciting event of my morning.

life is good. things are going great.
stay tuned.

Catching Up

My oh my. It is very late.
I made a goal to finish my online training courses tonight and I DID IT! Hello, Raise! My name is Minimum Wage! Lets elope.

I turned the big one-eight over the weekend. I found that the best way to celebrate is not by doing something illegal, but spending time with my closest friends and family. My best friend Evan came to visit and we had a ball. He and I made a delicious vegetarian lasagna. And the best part of the entire night? I got a zebra-striped snuggie out of it.

I love my friends.

I've struggled with writing about my life lately. Can you tell? I haven't blogged in ages. Sometimes when I go through a rough patch in my life, I shut down and don't share much. Well readers, Its been a while. And I'm all about the sharing.

I came across a mister Johnny Strat on Facebook. His sound is my music moment of the week. Give him a chance if you're into the singer songwriter stuff like yours truly.

Happy Holidays.

I Think I'll Be Brave...

Brave - Tawgs Salter
This song touched my soul. I heard it the other day and have spent every spare moment since then searching for the name. Its not often that I find a piece of music as beautifully written as this, but when I do, its magical.
I. Love. Music.
Its as simple as that.

I wish I could describe the thoughts that run through my head when I hear this song. One thing is for sure, there is always a montage of memories that run through my mind when I hear things like this.

Down - Jason Walker
You Fill My Heart - Jason Walker
Another stroke of genius I stumbled upon as I began writing this blog. Its as if musicians tap into my dreams every night and steal my memories for their own personal writings. Haa I can only wish it was that way.
Its nights like this when I pray for my Ipod to come back to life. I need my music.