Sometimes I need a moment where I can lie in the grass and listen to music. I need a moment of peace in this crazy thing I call my life. So why can I never find it?

22 days. I have been waiting to graduate for as long as I can remember. This year has been one for the history books. Thinking about it now makes me a little teary. This. Is. It. I never thought that one year could go by so quickly. It feels like it was just yesterday when we hiked up U Hill and painted each other rather than the U. Now we're receiving our caps and gowns... I'm scared, but boy am i ready.

The Script: Without your music, I wouldn't make it through times like this.
Let the good times roll.

feels like a lifetime.

so readers, it has been a long while.
lately i have been spending my days at a cute little clothing store down town. in the mornings, things are very slow. i pray that someone will come in and ask for a shirt that is just out of reach. that gives me an excuse to get my tool that so much resembles little bo peep's hook.
i love this job.
when i'm not selling merchandise, sweeping the floors, or stocking the swim suits, i like to dress up the mannequins in clothes that i could never afford. maybe one day when i'm swimming in money i will buy everything in this store.
recently i spotted a skirt on a rack that has been sitting there for months. i'm not sure if it has been skipped over or if it is due to the fact that the print is not attractive, but it has not been touched. until today. as she was paying for the skirt, she noticed that one of the belt loops was coming undone. i offered to fix it before she could change her mind. all i can say is that this has been the most exciting event of my morning.

life is good. things are going great.
stay tuned.

Catching Up

My oh my. It is very late.
I made a goal to finish my online training courses tonight and I DID IT! Hello, Raise! My name is Minimum Wage! Lets elope.

I turned the big one-eight over the weekend. I found that the best way to celebrate is not by doing something illegal, but spending time with my closest friends and family. My best friend Evan came to visit and we had a ball. He and I made a delicious vegetarian lasagna. And the best part of the entire night? I got a zebra-striped snuggie out of it.

I love my friends.

I've struggled with writing about my life lately. Can you tell? I haven't blogged in ages. Sometimes when I go through a rough patch in my life, I shut down and don't share much. Well readers, Its been a while. And I'm all about the sharing.

I came across a mister Johnny Strat on Facebook. His sound is my music moment of the week. Give him a chance if you're into the singer songwriter stuff like yours truly.

Happy Holidays.

I Think I'll Be Brave...

Brave - Tawgs Salter
This song touched my soul. I heard it the other day and have spent every spare moment since then searching for the name. Its not often that I find a piece of music as beautifully written as this, but when I do, its magical.
I. Love. Music.
Its as simple as that.

I wish I could describe the thoughts that run through my head when I hear this song. One thing is for sure, there is always a montage of memories that run through my mind when I hear things like this.

Down - Jason Walker
You Fill My Heart - Jason Walker
Another stroke of genius I stumbled upon as I began writing this blog. Its as if musicians tap into my dreams every night and steal my memories for their own personal writings. Haa I can only wish it was that way.
Its nights like this when I pray for my Ipod to come back to life. I need my music.

Experience the Red Cross

I can cross off something on my bucket list today.

Thats right.

I donated blood today.

I won't lie, I was very nervous when I walked into the room for my appointment today. When I finished the paperwork and went to sit down in the chair, I almost passed out. Thanks to Red Cross guy Ryan, I calmed down and had a great time with it. We chatted about our life goals and how his wife was a crazy vegetarian. It was a fun experience. I plan on donating every chance I get.

Observe the Inside of a Federal Prison

That's right boys and girls! I went to federal prison today! No I did not commit a murder or grand theft auto, I simply sat before a panel of inmates and asked questions for who knows how long. I'm not going to lie, they made prison sound fun. Its not supposed to be fun and games behind those big fences and bricked buildings. Is that where the average American's tax dollars are going each year? For prison inmates to have "happy circle" and play "duck duck goose" all day? It happens.
That gives me so much more confidence about where my money is going when I pay taxes.
Haa NOT!

I'm dreading the idea of returning to a normal school schedule. I've missed four days from school in the last week and I am sure my teachers are less than thrilled. Trust me, if I had a choice, I would skip the rest of high school and go straight on to college. My friends that graduated last year constantly tell me that senior year is the highlight of all schooling. So far, I am not loving it.

There was something on my mind that I was going to write about in this paragraph, but it has left my mind. I believe it was something of importance, but I can't remember for the life of me.

Have you ever had one of those days where everything you see or do reminds you of a particular memory? Today I was coming home from my long trip and my mind began a montage of memories dealing with a certain friend. It was nice to relive the best moments of my friendship with that person and it made me want to better our relationship. I can't help but smile every time I think of the places we've been or the things we've seen. I think of all the times we met up for ice-skating or a movie we both wanted to see for the longest time. Remembering these moments reminds me of what great people I have in my life.

Pause for a Music Moment

St. Augustine - Band of Horses
Story of a Boy - Between the Trees
Hello, I'm Delaware - City and Colour
You and Me - Lifehouse
Hazy - Rosi Golan feat. William Fitzsimmons

I've had so much on my mind these past few days. Time seems to be flying by at a million miles an hour. I hate it.

Imagine this situation for me for just a minute. You have a best friend of sorts, a friend closer than most. One day this friend tells you that you've changed. They say that you put your work before your friends and they hate what you've become. What do you say to that? That one person is so close to you, maybe they are right? This happened to me weeks ago, but its been on my mind ever since.
Have I turned into that person?