All I can say is What.A.Week.
Who knew things would end up being so complicated. I definitely didn't. In my mind, everything is making sense and I am doing everything right. So why can't everyone else understand? I've gotten a lot of crap from people lately and it is the worst thing to deal with. What I did was my decision. It may have been unreasonable and selfish, but I was losing sight of my dreams. I began to give up on everything I had worked so hard to accomplish. Doesn't sound like me, does it?
I'm all about reaching for the impossible and working toward it until the end of time. I almost gave up on my future.
What was I thinking?
I was thinking I'm in love. That is all that matters... Well guess what. It turns out that there is much more than that. I have everything in front of me. All I have to do is take these chances. I may fail, but I may succeed too. I'll never know unless I discover it. For myself. College has been a major reality check. I've learned more about myself in two weeks than I have in years.
On a brighter note, Computer Science is lovely. Especially when I am beginning to understand what is going on. We wrote a program today about how to determine miles per gallon. I was able to write my own program, but when it came to helping other students, I fell flat on my face. The next thing I have to learn is how to put everything I am thinking into words.
To those who have supported me throughout the last week, thank you. Thank you for supporting me and lifting me up through my hard days. I know that if it weren't for you, I wouldn't be sitting here writing this today. You are the blessings in my life and I am lucky to have you all.
For those of you who are in my position, keep on going. If anyone ever tells you that people are saying things or that you are something you're not, remember the phrase "Give me names." Give me the names of the people who believe that. Prove that its true. Even if they don't believe in you, remember the names of the people who do. You will always have someone there for you. Stay strong. Someone loves you. You know I do.
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